http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=67_b7dG2pZU

dearest readers.

this is a video that was sent to me. (look up, it is the subject) and i suggest quite strongly that you look at it. it will change your your view on disablities. hopefully for the better. because you can't tell all the time who isn't "normal" or who qualifies for a a disablity. so think before you speak,

i know. this blog is pretty much me ranting about how no one can except me for who i am. because i have this that and the other thing. but really. maybe i do complain a lot. but being a teenager isn't easy. try having people call you a retard. people IN YOUR FAMILY. call you a retard. yeah that hurts. there arne't any good points to this. i mean there are. but there aren't all at the same time. maybe it is just me but knowing that people are dealing with the same thing i am gives me a feeling of unity. i love that. yes i have friends and i love them with all my heart. and i say this in the nicest way. but just like i don't know what it is like to be you. you haev no idea what it is like to be me. this goes for everyone! so go ahead judge me. i dare you. because i know you couldn't handle living in my shoes on a bad day. and on a good day i bet you couldn't handle it either, so. watch the video. learn and don't judge.

almost done.

almost done.
school is just about half way over.
almost done with the numbers, the changes, the music,
almost done. just gotta' get by.
with a little help with my frirends.
here goes nothing.

things have been good and level and easy. no majior mess ups for a while.
wait. never mind. just messed up. no one is perefect. no one can do it all right?
i guess things just ge bad when i get nervous when talking to someone online, or when i try to explain my condtion to people.
that is really hard, because most people don't get it. so i don't try so much.
gueee i don't want to seem like i am complaining. but there isn't too much great about this. i am a normal person though. i do understand english, i can write, i can read, sometimes i get a little confused, but i can do it. everyone gets confused. i am dyslexic. not stupid. don't judge.

Everything

I am way risking everything here folks. i am starting a group with my twin. and it is a music group. it was inspired by the show Glee. (best show ever) and i am writing a song. it could be called a ballad i guess. i am very passionate about what i wrote about. it is about showing everyone i can do this. i can do the things i was told i could never do. i could lose a lot here. and really that is because, well i am not that good at this. i am really going off of a book and winging this. i am not sure how this is going to end. i am way unsure as to how this will play off, or how this is going to sound. or if anyone would be willing to sing it! ha. i will (As of right now) never right piano music. i wrote an acepealla number. (a song without music playing in the background.) and it is good, seeing as it is my first number in general. so really. this whole bog is trying to prove everyone wrong. and in a way i am. i should be able to write mildly orangized works of writing but i am trying so hard to keep it foucused. like you have no idea how hard this is for me. but i can do. because i sorta' like to prove people wrong.. when it comes to showing myself i can do this. which is also part of the song. oh you may want to know the lyrics yes?

the song is called Yes
This is my last chance to to something, to show the world who i am. i am someone who can do anything, no matter what im told. and you what?
Yes, i can
Yes, i will
i can do anything at all.
here i go unknowing unsure, weather i will hit the floor.But i've gotta' show the world that i will do anything everything to prove them wrong. by saying
Yes, i can
Yes, i will
i can do anything at all
i need to prove to them, to prove to myself that i can do anything i set my mind to. i can do anything at all. anything at all. anything at all.

so that is it.. i hope you like it. but if you don't then you can be part of "them" because i am going to prove to you. that I CAN do this.

today was a good day : )

i found some amazing stories about people with dyslexica. i am very amazed. and very glad that i was daignosed. even if it was late on in my life. thank you so much. and keep trying

have you ever had a good day?

have you ever had one of those days that just works out? one of those days that everything just worked?
well the other day wasn't that day : (

So yeah i couldn't say anything the way i wanted, and well my typeing was really off. and all that jazz. someone please tell me if this has happend to you. because my mom tells me because i am excited for something. but there was nothing to be excited about. and i wasn't typing really fast.
i just cried. that is how i fixed it. i know very lame and girly but what else can you do? nothing you say is coming out right, meaning that i would mix sounds and letters up to make different words.

people can be so cool

people can be so cool and so understanding!

i signed up for this e-pal website thing. and i told my new friend flat out that i am not the greatest speller. and that i was dyslexic. her response was that is fine. i am not the greatest speller either. i guess we will be fine. i was so excited!

i am glad people around the world are understanding. people here.. not so much.

they lost my reading class.

they lost my reading class.
this is a class to help me understand the reading material for history and science. this class was going to be a one on one thing, one me. and one teacher. this was going to be 3rd period every other day. well they lost it. i don't have that class any more. and really wanted to take this class so i can do more for it, i'll be able to really solidly know what is going on in that class. and without this class i am thinking this year is going to suck.
speaking of school, it sucks too. i am sure this is the one thing my whole grade can agree on. isn't that great? yeah not even alittle.