lets talk about grades

I am dyslexic not stupid.

I want this on a shirt to wear on finals.

I also want some way of taking a final where I can sit one on one with a professor and show them what I know verbally.

I often get caught up on words and making sure they say the same thing, rather htan the matieral itselfe. Isn't that annoying.

Im also going to go on a small rant about tests.

-clears throat-

I think there must be some other way to test students about the matieral being presented in the class. Writing on a sheet of paper says to me:
"What I learned in boating school"

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I guess I am an adult now though. I say this because previously, when I was upset about grades and finals and what not. I would get uspet at the teacher. I now know they don't want to fail us. They don't want to make us feel stupid or inferrior. They want us to be successful, and to do well.
Many teachers don't have the training to do so. I wonder what I can do to change this for my kids.

alright time for adress teh reader:

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sorry blogers who now should think i dropped off the face of the earth. i haven't been posting much here...
this year though is almost done. or atleast it will be soon.

I recently watched a moving video about people like me.

people with dyslexia*
I watched their frustrations and their  struggles.

I didn't realize how alone I had felt in that moment. I didn't realize how hard I had tried to fit in with others. I didn't realize how very few people understood what Dyslexia actually is.

How little I actually knew about it.


But at that same moment I was able to realize there are LOTS of people out there. There are lots of people who struggle and have issues and have the same form of triumph that I do.

Reading out loud used to be so hard for me. I would often refuse to do so. Now I am reading out loud to myself and my nephew because I can.

I found people at the very same time that I realized I was alone.

This in itself is a very odd realization for me, I don't actually know those people. they don't know me from anyone else on this planet.

From a psychology prospective, i guess I did the greiving aspect of myself a long time ago. I just failed to think to find other people. I cried over so many school projects, so many reading assignments. and was so wrapped up in myself that I didn't think of others.

End rant

*You would think they would name a reading/spelling/comprehension disorder with an easier name to spell huh?

still in college.

Hello to the two people who have said Hi to me, and checked me out. thanks for taking the time to say hello! I'll try to post more later about school and whats going on. Im sorry that I ahve let this blog go!

I am not 16 anymore.

I will be 20 this summer. I have some of the same thoughts on my learning disablity but much had changed, Im in college now, and I don't feel that I NEED my accomidations, rather I simply ask and the professors and they are willing to provide what I ask.I mangaged to get a C+ in stats, lowest gread yet, but I passed. I am still an awful speller. But I have gotten much better.I am resisting the urge to correct my spelling as I see the red line appearing. this is to just remind me that I still can't spell. sometimes its as simple as a typo, or mixing letter ups. see adding them where they shouldn't be. oh well. An additional thing I have realized that since going to college I am very willing to talk about my experiences, and some of the things I did while in school to make sure everything was done to make sure I was being understood. and that I understood. Well, I am off, I'm thinking to start this up again. It could be fun.

just thought of something.

how namy people really do think like that? i mean it seems like everyone does.

but really.

it seems to me that from our school there really isnt that much bullying because people generally hold their tounges. but their minds are free to think whatever they want to think.

i really wish someone read this.
i would love to get feed back from anyone as to weather they think things like this.

for all of you who have ever said,
"he's must be stupid."
"what an idiot"
"she is in high school and cant read?"

or have ever done:
the slight laugh when someone stumbles.
looked at someone like they were an idiot when they asked you how to spell something


you know what.
you have no idea what it means to have a learning issue.maybe you do, and your pride doesn't allow you to embrace it, and you should know that students who have these things aren't stupid. they learn differently. do you know how embarassed some people get when they ask you how to spell something? so next time don't say anything. keep it to yourself.
because if you don't.
who is the real stupid one?